Written Thursday, May 27 2016
I always laugh when I see sleep schedules or stay-at-home mom schedules on Pinterest when I look up things about babies and parenting. I can’t wrap my mind around a schedule with the lifestyle we live. I’m not going to lie, there are definitely times when I wish we lived a “normal” life and could put Eden on a schedule. Sometimes I wish when Chad gets home from work at 5:30, he could simply eat dinner with us, veg in front of the tv all evening, and then we’d go to bed as a family (Yes, I know that probably isn’t what most families do and it would get boring over time, but it would be nice to have that option sometimes). But that’s not the life we live. I try to have dinner ready at 5:30 so when Chad gets home we can eat and get outside to do the chores and then do whatever is first priority on the list, which is normally picking or planting.
I probably sound like I’m complaining and unhappy. And maybe I am complaining a bit, but I am happy. Though the farm life is hard at times (especially this time of year), I am so thankful Eden will grow up with this life, out here on this beautiful piece of land surrounded by nothing but fields and all of God’s creation, knowing what it means to work hard. A couple evenings ago as we were driving back to the farm from town I told Chad how thankful I am to live so far from city lights and noises and to literally be surrounded by nothing but nature.
I think I’m having such a hard time right now with this lifestyle because it is the busy time of year, Chad works full-time and comes home and farms so I hardly see him, and this is our first Spring trying to farm with a baby. Let me tell ya, it’s hard to get things done with a baby. I also think I’m still trying to recover from our crazy busy weekend.
On Friday, I picked everything for farmer’s market so when Chad got home all he had to do was wash everything (plus do the regular chores and get the market trailer ready). Even with me picking everything he still didn’t come in until after 10pm. Thankfully, Chad’s dad watched Eden so I could pick. She’s not a fan of sitting in her stroller just staring at me in the field. She’s almost 10 months old and Friday was the longest she’s ever been watched by anyone else since she was born (around 4 hours) and I still fed her and changed her during that time. Though I was picking in the field, the alone time was very much needed.
On Saturday, we got up at 4:30am to get ready for market like we do every week. After market we ran a couple errands, was home by 4pm, did chores, and went into town to have dinner at Chad’s parents house.
On Sunday, we got up and Chad did his morning chores while I took care of Eden. We went to church where I taught Sunday School. After church we went to Bristow to get some mineral that goes in our chicken feed. We didn’t get home until almost dinnertime, so while I cooked dinner Chad wore Eden in the ergo while he hilled potatoes on the tractor.
On Monday, Chad took the day off so we could go on our “Road Trip of Central Oklahoma Tour,” as I’m calling it. We went to Edmond to pick out our high tunnel. After 3 years of trying we finally got approved for a grant to get one! Woo hoo! We are so excited! Then we went to Edmond to pick up our lavender plants. We will be growing lavender for the first time! We received a discount on the plants since we agreed to be a part of a trial. We just have to keep detailed records of the plants! Soap making, here I come! Then, we went to Shawnee to deliver eggs to our dear friends who farm there and have a grocery store, and to pick up our sweet potato starts from them. We got home just before dark so we could do the chicken chores and get them moved to fresh grass!
Needless to say, it was an exhausting few days! The last three days I’ve been catching up on laundry, housework, and diaper washing. And since tomorrow is Friday we will be running around like chickens with our heads cut off again! But hopefully not quite as cut off as last weekend!
When I start to feel overwhelmed and want to cry because there is more to do than we have time for I just remember Ecclesiastes 3. There is a time for everything under the sun. Right now, it is hard. It’s hard because I hardly see my husband and I take care of Eden almost all by myself. It’s hard because I see how exhausted Chad is and I want so bad to help him more, but we have a beautiful baby girl that needs me now. I know this season in our life is making us stronger. I know it will pay off. One day when Chad doesn’t have to work off the farm and we are able to eat dinner without rushing through it to get things done we will smile on these days of exhaustion and craziness.
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What do workers gain from their toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. 13 That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.